The Darkness

I've always been attracted to all things dark. It's funny because I'm actually a very nice and kind person.
First of all, one of my biggest passions is metal. Black, death, doom, power, basically all of it. Not that I want to try and identify everything in its sub sub genre - whatever. I listen every day. All metal is not "dark" by any means, but the more sinister, the better for me. There is something so honest about pure negative feelings. Sweet unrestrained evil. Inhuman screams uttering all the things you're afraid to say or hear. People so often try to ignore or suppress their dark side, their sorrow, their anger, but within metal, it is unleashed. I think it is okay to acknowledge the darkness in you. You can't deny all the tragedy and hatred in the world. In a way it makes certain parts of life even more beautiful. The thing is, we live in this universe that balances on duality. We need dark and light. I think I get a good helping of both. And you know what?? You can't take life too seriously. You have to have a sense of humor. I think that is what also allows me to take in the world as it really is --- MESSED UP.

What else do we have? Demons!!! Let me preface this by saying I don't have any particular religious beliefs. But I'm pretty sure there are "evil spirits" out there with a lot of power. However I'm not sure why they make me so excited. Probably simply because they know the answers to what lie beyond this life. Also because they don't give a F*** and I think that's awesome.

On the same note, all things paranormal and supernatural.... I am basically obsessed with. Ghosts, demons, aliens, bigfoot, werewolves, etc. Again, because I see all of these things as a window to the answers we are all really wanting - what lies beyond?

AND my real dream is to one day be a mortician - specifically, an embalmer. Okay maybe I'm ridiculously messed up. But I think I can handle being around death. I also believe I can keep my cool and exude comfort to those affected by it. Plus, on the scientific side, I get to prepare dead bodies, perform procedures, and unlike a doctor, I won't have to worry about making a mistake and killing someone. (ha!) From the artistic side, I get to do reconstruction and makeup. That is also super awesome. It's extremely hard to get into this line of work without connections in the state I am in, but fingers crossed for someday.