Relapse // and Japan.

Okay so I quit that detox thing. OMG it was super hard! I would like to think I am a person with self control but.... eff that thing. The straw that broke the camel's back, however, was probably the fact that I put cajun seasoning (by accident) in my dinner smoothie instead of cayenne pepper. AND I ACTUALLY DRANK LIKE HALF OF IT! Geez. So now I'm back to coffee and grains and dairy life.

STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS.......

Let's move on so I can just talk about myself and my weirdness to try to express myself through words so that one day internet strangers can understand me as a person.

I love Japan! Japanese fashion, culture, language, anime, video games, Rilakkuma, I love it all.

Final Fantasy has basically formed the basis of my life and my perception of existence. That's like all I ever play. And yeah, I've tried the newer ones but I keep playing 7, 8, 9 over and over. I do like 10 as well though. 7 is the best thing in the world. All I will ever need is my PSX. If I was that kind of person I would cover my whole body with FF tattoos. I've been obsessed since I was 12. So... 13 years. wow.

In that same branch of my tree -- my husband surprised me with the first half of the Deathnote series on DVD! We freaking LOVE Deathnote. It's like the first anime he's truly been into, so it's great that we can watch it together. The whole thing is just a giant mindf***. I feel like I become smarter just by watching it. It's something we can look forward to watching together on the edge of our seats each night.
I have to give him some more credit, though. He did watch all of Chobits with me, and actually pay attention, and laugh. Sweet husby <3

I want to go to Japan. Or live there!! Big cities absolutely freak me out, here in the US at least... but for some reason Tokyo seems perfect in my eyes.

I think I need to get my own savings account.... So I can save up to go there. I hope that doesn't seem like there's a divide between my husband and me, but we both want very different things. How can we be fair if we don't divide the money?