Kicking the Prozac

SO. SLEEPY.

I am soooo crazy sleepy and completely sapped of energy.

I have found myself to be a little more cranky... irate.. impatient.. PMS-like. But it's minor, and I'm trying to stay positive.

I feel skinnier. I have no clue why!! But I think my appetite has decreased a little. Could be mental, but I'll take that too!

I don't think my personality has changed. Besides the fact that I am too tired to smile today, and I'm talking in slow motion!

You know how it looks when you burn the edges of a piece of paper? The paper is still rectangular and white, but there is this rough brownness that is always there on the edge. That's how my anxiety feels. My life and every day is like a normal white sheet of paper, but there is always that burned spot in the background that sometimes feels like it's going to creep up into the clean white part. I go about my day like normal and sometimes these irrational fears and worries and dread creep in, like a shadow standing right behind my skull. I manage to push them back down though. So far so good. I can feel it, a little more so, but I know that I have nothing to worry about. Nothing is wrong.

I can't wait to kick this. I want to be totally normal and fully-functioning! I have been utterly fatigued for 9 months. I am ready to be alive again.

Medication is such a huge undertaking. I definitely needed it at the time. (God, now I don't even want to remember or think about those times.) I think I made the right choice in getting on it. But WOW, is it hard to get on and off of!